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haiz.. work n work n work...

2005-10-27T09:35:00.000-07:00

haiz.. have been working thru out e month.. ermm.. am i tired...?? wat do u think... of cos man..? at least im glad i pass my exam with flying colors... tats one hell of happiness but to balance it within this month of fasting i lost my phone... or shld i say stolen... haiz.. this s the sad part... 3230 man!!! only 2 3 month old... haiz... this is the 3rd hp in a yr... how could this happen to me..!!!!!!! arghhhhhh... any way ....believe it or not.. i think my hp was stolen.. i only left it there for 2 mins n itss gone... wth...!!!now have to work again to get another.. orr.... not to get?? still thinking.. think jus have a phone card in ma wallte can already ar... ermmm...sooo stress up these few days...how long mus i tahan man... haiz... dun tell me this will go on forever,.. i need a break...im so broke...!now i m gng to my 2nd semester of ma 2nd yr in poly.. haiz... so fast huh..hope i can pull thru to the U... *pray hard... pray for me hor... thank you... and i hope i can have lesser burden in ma head...!! well guess have to keep up n continue with ma life n be grateful with wat i have now.... thank GOD nth happen to me... everything happen to ma stuff...k.. updating again folks...!
to be continue.................

my 2nd year...

2005-06-21T06:48:00.000-07:00

harlow.. ermm, its has been so long since i last updated my blog.. hee have been too busy werking and skool stuff... haiz.. guess i ll get back slowly.. well, this new year 2 of my campus life has been tough and diff.. with lesser ppls i know in class and the modules are getting tougher... damn first time fail my SD!!! by 2 marks... WTH!! really dissapointing.. but wat to do.. its already over.. at least i got 2.4% over the 5%... ermm.. mus get started.. mus get my ball rolling and study now!!! ermm.. maybe this will be my dairy for me.. if only if i can have this laptop on my own... meaning my dad get a new desktop.. so my siblings will use that instead.. its b cos of them also that i had not been updating.. hee.. i know that one will always come and see if i update.. haha.. sorry dear.. you know it yourself.. why.. ok la...

over and outZzz... to be continue:

after a long tym

2005-05-07T11:53:00.000-07:00

haiz... so busy werking and so fore.. so sori for not updating... i ve been soo busy n packed with so much stufff... im damn tired n shagged... i think im exhausted... haiz.. but wat to do... its my life.. i ve to go thru it... errmm... aniwae i cant use my comp since my bro keep on using it... haha cos i ve getting back home late at nite or shld i say early in the morning after werk... hoping to earn more... haiz... im so bored with my life and feel soooooo stressssss rite now... feel lyk giving up but wat to do.. i ll nv have such sttitude to give up.. i mus sstill carry on... no mtter wat... haiz.. now im filled with fatigue and worries and stuff... guess i ve to go thru it one by one... haiz... think i ll update this again after a long tym again....... signing off........

todae....????

2005-04-16T22:10:00.000-07:00

haiz.. todae wake up oso late.. dunno why keep on waking up late......den todae werking some more.. haiz.. so tire... den msg dera immediately afer getting up.. den bath all tat.. didnt use the laptop much this time.. dunno why oso.. too tire i guess.. get ready early todae,.... for werk.. 4 start 1 i get ready already.. den want to take a nap ... again..... den dear call want to talk.. den talk talk... after tat she let me sleep first.... hee.. really cannot tahan... den sleep only for half an hour... den wake up 3 already.. den get ready al that.. to go out.. den walking down to the mrt station,. heard a band playingnear hougang mall there.. so i went there to take a look ... cos they play very loud.. very impressive..anywae still early for werk...den i realise its holy innocent band.. waw.. they play really loud... like gng for war like tat,!!!! how i wish sk band can pla like tat... surely they ll get more respecet from the otheres in the school....haiz......guess not now den.......

again..

2005-04-15T22:04:00.000-07:00

todae woke up quite late.. nearly 12 i think.. den tot of gng to the barber.. but chg my mind.. cos wait at the shop there so long... but the person not there.. but the shop's lightings all on... ??? where are they..? den go back home w/o cutting anything.. haiz... den late for mosque oso.. so nv go.. den meet dear at sk earlier.. at the void deck.. haa..den talk talk... den star her manje... lol... ok la.. aniwae waiting for nazmi to come meet us.. den todae play the bass drum again.. wah!!! really tiring lei.. i feel like jus stop playing half way.. cos really hurts... but den dun 1 2 embarras the band... soo jus hang on... wat to do.. ms wong already say i play... den play lor.. den expect who play... member oso not tat sure den later get more scolding only.....haiz,... hope the band will rally improve... doesnt mean get silver improve already.. mus be impressive everytime out there when they play.. like the parade oso.. so weak.. no impact at all... guess wait till our band grow bigger.. dn we ll see wat a real band is like.

thurs...

2005-04-14T23:00:00.000-07:00

Todae wkoe up at 11.. hah.. still got rehersal todae cos yesterdae reaingin then todae continue...haha.. todae oso werking.. den reach at werk place oso late.. cos still helping them on the reheral.. haiz.. to bad.. have to help them play.. well.. i dun mind... but quite tiring lei.. hmm.. why sk band still soo weak.. ermm guess we lack of man power.. and the comminttment.. haiz.. till the next time i guess... next time...

speech dae??

2005-04-13T20:12:00.000-07:00

haha.. todae wake up at 10 to scan my laptop waaa.. one hour lei.. den todae argue with her... alamak.. hate to do tat... my worst mood.. like trying not to let the steam from a boiling pot to escape... den mit her at cp in the popular to buy her student assess book... den mit up wiht nazmi as usual... den had sk speech dae rehersal todae... helpm out in the parade and the percussion... heee.. fun... but stressful with the band not knowing how to play it rite again after their syf.... all messyhaiz.. nvm think they eee time.. believe they can..

play time

2005-04-12T23:15:00.000-07:00

todae i woke up at 11 again.. first thing i do... on my laptop... den everything open den i go bath... hhahaa... den play game all the way untill 6... den tired go ssleep.. waa feel very tiring.. den todae first time again i watch TV !......... haha so long nv watch tv liao.. always laptop only... todae nth much to say cos do nth much.. still sooo happy tat the band got SILVER... guess we r lucky too.. to have on the first dae.,,,, heard tat xin min got silver too... stil,l amazed tat orhid park sec from COP got GOLD with HOnoUrs....!!! soooo shocking,,,

woow!

2005-04-11T22:39:00.000-07:00

wooww!!! i m really surorise and glad... happy for them for achieving the goal we set.... i believe we can do better... todae was the SYF for my skss band.. they were not that nervous though, but can see tat they are indeed nervous for some of them... so i jus remind them and calm them down by chatting with them... well its the alumni dream to have them to do better then our batch last 2 years... and they did it,... we r so proud of them... i almost collapse waitning for the results... haha.. i knew u guys can make it.. from the start... but as i said u guys can hit a better goal... maybe next 2 years huh... congrats guys...!! i m proud of my trumpet section too.. they do listen to wat i ve been telling them,. and i see only my section trumpet and trombone did follow wat i ve said on fri,.............well... u guys are great...! but no matter wat dun forget ur discipline in band this coming year okz... azmi n bryan are stepping down.. so listen to yong ying and eugene.,,. okz... build a better band this coming year... lets make the bad grow....! ok!

boring dae.....

2005-04-10T23:24:00.000-07:00

woke up arround 11 plus... cos tired after yesterdae game... den whole body aching... yesterdae oso didnt get to touch the laptop mcuh.. so when to sleep ......hoping todae can use... but den my bro said he wants to brig the laptop oout haiz... but den in the end nv.... den he use quite long.. with my cousin,.... i only touch for one hour or so.. den a t6 i got to hold it.,... till 10/.. huahuahua.. but stilll not enough for me... i was playing game ith nazmi.... his lvl dso high already... walao... haiz... so yesterdae while waiting to use the laptop.. i did a list of reminder for skss band before gng to SCH.... and draw stuff...sian mahz..feel a bit nervous for themm... dunno how to tell them the results later when the x members stayed back... if good den phew.. gd for them... but if its... cchoy.. touch wood,.. but den if so.. den we really dun noe what anfdd how to say to themm..... i dun think i could tell them straght........ nvm i believe them.... there are ready i believe..... lets see tml.....

hockey dae......

2005-04-09T23:16:00.000-07:00

todae... has to wake up ealry in the morning cos haf to meet up with my hockey ates at cityhall by 7.50am... we r having a hockey match todae.. hhaaha... a bit nervous... the first game we lost.. i let in 3 goals.. haiz.. not use to playing in the feild i guess... but den we manage to get hold in the second game.. by having a draw.... and den won the last game.. so now we are in a depending situation.. we haf to hope tat the team we lost to to win the team we drae with in order for us to qualify... but den we lost by 1 goal.... too bad.. we r out.. think its not bad.. its our first time playing together as ateam in this 4 a side game at padang... haiz.. nvm.. den todae lost my ring damn!!! i found out only when i got the train on the way home.. haiz... den on reaching my house.... my team mates called me and said that we actually qualify... so i rush back den hopefully i can find the ring that i forgottento take in the toilert.... but unfortunately.... half way down the journey they call again and asaid htat they heard wrongly... haiz.. so iu jus go there aniwae hoping that i could get back my ring.. haiz.. didnt get it....so apologihes to dear.... my clumsiness,... always forgetful....

a bit diff this time..

2005-04-08T23:02:00.000-07:00

todae woke up a bit early ... den raining some more.. went to hougang mall to find for their syf ribbon... still ant find... so... no choice had to find some other place..... den todae oso tot of gng hockey traing cos tml got hockey tournament at padang... haha but in the end nv go.. cos too tired...den todae went to band and no choice hav to ta them and tell them wat i really mean... den quite impressive i mus say for a bit.. but stilll have to prac more.. cos the last part still not firm... ending must be gd..haiz.. but i noe they can do it.. so jus pray hard... they dun break down.. den aftert tat we went CP to go eat... haha den go home... i still feell guilty nv go hockey.. haiz...

same same thing...

2005-04-07T22:02:00.000-07:00

haha... woke up early todea to continue my game.. hehex... den go sch by 1.. mit them n dear at the usual place... den we go to NIE todae.. wow...! my future campus... hope so... eh..no NTU.. same place ar... den like prof HO way of teaching alots... haha.. he soo cute... hehehx.. how he can hear so minor off pitch amg the players...????? haiz.. guess i m still learning.. can hear a bit only... but dunno whos the one.. hehex.. den go mac eat.. i too full so eat ice cream only... den todae mit my classmate.. waaa. she slim down alot.... haha.. got a bf liao.. hhaha.. i dun care... hehexx.. haf already wat.. hehex... soo went home after tat... continue with the game with nazmi.. den he left suddenly.. without warning .. dunnoe wat happen... haiz... to be continue...:

same thing,,,,

2005-04-06T09:29:00.000-07:00

hah.. todae woke up same time den mit dear at same place as yesterdae den wait for hanxian n nazmi.. hah... come soo early... den dunnoo wait how long.. but nvm... haha.. went to band todae and found tat they r still not stable.. sometimes good , den sometimes shaky.. haiz.. im sooo worried.. i want them to do better this time round.. i want them to get better award then my year tat time.. haiz.. all the bez to them.. hope they noe wat to do...

same...

2005-04-05T23:59:00.000-07:00

todae is jus like any other dae... woke up and play game hehex.. den mit dear at outside ssch to go for band.. had the same thing for the dae... impressed with my section and some of the other section... but still have more to werk on... but im worried.. short of tym.... haiz... nvm... den todae eat at captains cook.. haha.. den after dinner laugh with nazmi n azmi till our stomach can burst... i laugh untill i cry and cant feel and control my laughter... think its gd to laugh after u eat haha....! tats all got home and play again.. hehx.
to be continue:

free day

2005-04-04T23:54:00.000-07:00

todae woke up at 11.30... haha no werk!.. so free.. but gng band todae... so met dear at popular to get their SYF file... and waiting for azmi... but the files there are very expensive....soo didnt buy... haiz... think have to be more budget.. haha.. so go back to skss band by 2 plus.. haha.. den something happen.. haiz.. dunno la nvm .. lucky todae i patient a bit... den the band todae play quite OK.. im proud of them.. but still worried though.. haiz.. still no life.,how i wish they noe wat i want them to do.. i mean really every single one of them... i noe some got it and are doing it.. and ompressive i mus say.. but still there are statue here n there...hehehx.. but nvm.. dun 1 push n force them.. it mus come naturally... nth much todae except for band... den todae nv go CP haha...

gaming time...

2005-04-03T23:59:00.000-07:00

today woke up at 10.30.. haha... surpirse after a tiring dae at werk still came wake up as early as tat... hha.. usually till 1 plus.. todae same thing bath and on my laptop... alwaysss.. but b4 tat msg dear... haha.. she herself shock... think im too used to getting up early.. haha.. den todae oso nazmi intruduce me new game.. waalao.. me soo kuku.. ahahah.. as he said... i really kuku lpor in this kind of installing or downloading game ...den teach me how to play al tat.. haha fun ar.. like maple.. but this one more like real life . u noe reality... not cartoon with "cute figures"... haha...now i think after this i go and play... hehe.. so went to werk after playing at 3.00 oohh. and todae rain again.. walao... nice weather to sleep but i ve to go werk... haiz,.. but nvm ... i ve to...so reach at werk place all wet.. not all la.. 3/4 of my pants wet.. den tat place so cold .. den my leg pain2 sia.. but i tahan ... dun 1 complain soo much... i was put as service todae no more kitchen .. haha so lucky todae not bz oso.. so i can a bit dae dream... but cannot long ar... a while only customer call... hmm... nth much la actually...nth happening really happened. soo..
to be continue...:

troubled....

2005-04-02T00:00:00.000-08:00

this morning ..was raining.. so i slept quite peacefully... though i did had a bad nite yesterdae.. thnking n worrying... so slept till 11 plus....den got up n went straight to my laptop....sooo after spending my time on my laptop.. i went to take shower as to prepare for work... start at 4.. end 11 plus.. haiz.. went back to sleep at 1 plus... too tired i guess... scared later at work cannot tahan... so take a quick nap.. got up again n get read y for werk.. she called me once... den i started thinking again... haiz... im sooo worried n scared of wat will happen.. but den nvm.. trying to forget it... so at werk i was in the kitchen... n almost chock up the kitchen cos it was quite busy n i couldnt focus on my werk... dunno y... think i was jus not prepare for my werk since a long tym,... guess so... but i was thinking of it.... haiz.. what will happen? ermmm... nvm den i ll jus have to wait and see ... im just worried..... hai... :-(

last exam paperz... n concert nitez...

2005-04-01T23:30:00.000-08:00

today woke up as usual at 6.. think im use to it already ar,...everydae wake up so early... den todae go sch early...w/o dear... alone on the bus den fall asleep...untill almost over shot my sch... waa. if not i ll be late meeting my frenz..haiz.. todae papaer quite challenging.. den get into the exam hall late.. panick myself.. but manage to calm down.. after tt go take bus back to hougang...to the mosque there... reach so early.. after pray meet khairul.. haha.. den quarrel with him abt 2003 SFY from the mosque till i reach home.. hahaha so noisy in the bus all quiet den only we talk so loud like figthing in court room,...den reach home eat n chat with her... den take a nap. get up at 5.15 and get ready to go out for the concert.. mit them at the usual place...kena april fool joke a few tyms..aiyo... i sooo weak... not alert one..concert was great ..esp the finale... like it... after tat we went home .. while waiting for bus pooor azmi scared cos ppl stared at him.. ask him y he nv ans,, haiz den up in the bus he kena bully debn keep quite.. aiyo!!! if i noe ... the bus chaos ar i think,.... when i hear he said tat my blood like boiling... and my hand feels so light... haiz.. den nvm think he can take care of himself...todae oso sway... mit pris cousin then she saw us... so awkward todae... den i really stunt n dunno wat to do.. so diyanah sit in btwn us... den her bus come... she leave us there... sooo obvious ... DIE la!!! HELP!!!! im damn scared n nervous if ath happen..... wat a dae... think i wont be able to sleep weel tonite...

wHere s the spirit...

2005-03-31T23:05:00.000-08:00

woke at as usual at 6 to go sch.. haha todae dear alst exam paper... accompanied her to sch den i study at the library... hah.. got a hang of all the topic tat r gng to be tested already... think confident liao...hah.. todae after her paper tot of gng watch movie...but when reach PS.. we chg our mind cos the movie start late.... so we go back sengkang instead go captain's cook take our lunch... we eat... in the bus teach dear speak malay.. haha so cute..den tot of gng cold storage want to disturb khairul... cos todae he werking.. but couldn't find him... haizz... how can tat be.. he so big... think he s in the store..so.. we went to band earlier... so we take our visitor pass from MR Ang... but he say have to take photo first then can take so ppl will recognise us next tym.... so we give him take... after tat... we went find the band members.. in band haiz... disappointing.. where s the spirit guys..! haiz.. still very stiff.. they play the music dead... hope they will chg... haizzzz...
to be continue...:

2005-03-30T08:57:00.000-08:00

hey.. hiee... hah.. todae woke up as early again..6.00AM... still sleep thoug..... haha.. den as usual... but didnt bring my laptop.... haha.. gd for me... at last in studying... fall asleep in the bus wif dear... haha.. den reach sch... chase another guy out ofour room.. hah! soo happy... dunno how many ppl i chase liao.. den had fun wif dear .. hehex...cheecky i think...den told stories to her.. make her cry.. haiz.. so sad to see her cry.. but i console her... todae i really studied and manage to get a hang of that tuff topic... haha.. well i think i enjoyed my dae todae some how.. but preety das about something that came suddenly thru my mind...*tat made her cry.... haiz... eager to wait for nazmi to edit my album which i haf proble wif,... so this is still under construction... the dae after tmr is my last paper and after tat thinking of gng band straigh. but mr im gng back to band to check them out... very ancious for them... hope they are doing weell n fine... dun see them nervous though but.. haiz.. hope its a gd sign,.. kz..
la to be continue....:

yEstErdAy and TodAe....

2005-03-29T21:53:00.000-08:00

...woke up at as usual but a bit later...at 6.20... haha late already cos dear is already waiting for me... to go sch... haha.... nth much happen.... when to sch to study... den dear having her 2nd exam so wish her gd luck... hehhex....haha.. was alone in the library room with my laptop... haha.. sooo bad never study play laptop only.. doing blog.. haha.....haha... doo only my frenz come.. de they join me do... do wat? haha play latop ar... so bad... den dear come bac and we went down to have our brunch... ?? a hotdog? haha but full la... den came bac to the room... continue playing my laptop.. haha.. den dear wan go home already... so... go home. haha.. nver study den tat dae... go back sleep, bath den blog again... haiz... whole dae never study.... den get frustrated with my blog/.....cos everything in a mess after inserting the album codes... haha..den now ITS sTiLL unDEr cOnsTRUctIOn! dun laugh at my album kzz....den no tym to update yesterday.. haha so jus chg the date haha..lol...so convinience cos bz think wats wrong with my programme? haha...lolz.. to be continue later...

AnCiouS fOr sKy bANd SYF cOmIng...

2005-03-28T07:52:00.000-08:00

Todae i woke up at 6.00am... as usual to mit sayang early in the morning to go sch... reach sch around 7.45am.... todae was my second exam paper... WoOw... soo tricky... hoopee can score well.. dun wan to get jus pass... argh... so stress...! how...hope sayang will get as good too... in her examination... was quite a boring dae.. but i keep myself bz by studying n modifying my blog n also spending tym wif dear dear... lol.. haha..a tiring dae indeed... got dizzy in the bus n fall a sleep...lol....wanted to go band but by the tym finish exam... band started liao.. if go oso band finish liao....haiz... still fear for them... but den i know they ll make it thru.....todae.. oso finish quite a lot on my blog.. haha.. quite satisfied now... still trying to add more stufff... want to learn more.... soo.. keep on pestering naZmi... hehehx

boring dae...

2005-03-27T08:44:00.000-08:00

on the 27th... woke up at 10.. waw ... amazing... yesterday sleep at 3 still can wake up at 10... hah! really amzing... got msg from sayang.... den on my latop think if can do ath to my blog.. haha.. too bad... now its already 28th nearly 1.00am...! hah .. my bro la... go out wif the laptop.. den cannot do my studies n my blog.. so can see quite a boring dae for me..!!! haiz....... but tot of studying... but a while only.. after one chapter, go sleep... ahaha.. weather soOooo nice..... sleep ar until 6 like tat.. den tot of my laptop.. haiz.. i knew he ll be back late.. tats why only till now den i can post my diary.. haha still not happy with my blog.. no mood to do liao now... now gng to slp ... tmr meeting sayang early at 6! in the morning.. gng sch study.. for me, i haf my second paper...haiz.. hope i can still do well.. even tho i study only like.. ermm... u noe la...

mE on the gO....

2005-03-26T07:08:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, On the 25th, was my 18th bdae... doesnt expect ath from anyone....its jus like a normal day, jus tat im getting older... haha...well..on 25th, woke up at 9 plus.. go online... go to forum as usual.. check here n there... chat wif nazmi.. for a while....den..zZzzz went back to sleEp.. tOo tiRed.. bUt eXciTed !!! cAnt waIt to see sk bAnd foR tHeir rEhersaL.. hAve cOnfIdeNcE iN thEm........sO goT uP again At 11.30 n cAll dear dear.... den went to mosque for friday prayer...... heehxx.. reach SCH... not skool la.. SIngaPoRe cOnFeREncE hAll...! fEeL nERvOus..dUnNo wHy...gOt wIsheS fRom a Few of tHem n so Fore..... heHehx ..so hApPy tO seE tHem all seT uP fOr their first REhersaL.....quite dissapointed at first,,, but impressive as the move on n on rehershing for both pieces..overall......IMPRESSIVE! but still not as wat i expected........... :'( bUT i believe they can... on the actual dae that is... on 11 april ! aFter taT we WEnt home..got onto the bus with the woodwinds section.... n bryan made me paiseh!... sooo......... not use to it... doesnt suit me.... n sang me bdae song??! but i appreciates it... haaha wat a day! heee ....... we went to CP den for our dinner.. at BK...sayang blanja me.. haha.. feel like a KING...hehehx... den they buy soo much.. even i cant finish... seriously......act can eat only... but drank too much... still fun being with the band members.... esp with old band frenz....

As for todae ... Woke up at 1.00pm !!!! den do my stuff.. chat with nazmi n was invite to his house to watch the video we took at the rehersal!!.. so went there around 1.45... den took the train den the lrt...walao...!!! take the damn lrt go one big roung but never reach nazmi house... drn get down the lrt act cool and nth is wrong but in fact paiseh liao... den cal dear dear den nazmi.. wat for? complain ar... why the lrt track like tat... tot of studying todae but didnt.. ahaha but only awhile... den oso plan on the aLumNi t-shirt at nazmi house... dear keep on calling to check on me.... for wat? haha check whether i study anot... ahaha.. but still haven start... den got back home.. continue with my laptop n doing my stttoooopid blog.. so irritating... mafan lei...always cannot... now den ok a bit... haiz....... end here liao...

nEwbiEs tO bLoG...

2005-03-24T19:29:00.000-08:00

todae ... having dificuties setting the template... getting help from nazmi... haiz.. lol tidious...really noobz on this stuff... haha.. but learnig.. hah! hey.. at least im catching up uh...!